An Open Window

I’m feeling discouraged this evening.

I just received an email, in response to an offer I made to be a workshop speaker at an upcoming youth conference in Manitoba. It said:

“Heather, Thanks for the kind offer. We are already booked up for both events and not looking for any more presenters. “

A closed door.

Then I received another email from a writing contest I entered a few months back, which I didn’t win.  It said,

“Congratulations for being the person that just missed the Olympic medal.”

Another closed door.

Neither of these people meant to discourage me, but it just feels like doors of opportunity are closing all around me.

When I began taking this whole blogging thing more seriously 3 months ago, I did so because I genuinely felt led by God to do so.  I’ve poured hours into writing posts, editing photos, guest posting, sponsor swapping, commenting on other blogs, etc. etc. and it feels like I’m stuck.  Like I don’t know what the next step is or if I’m having any impact at all.  My growth is at a standstill and I don’t know what the next step is.

More closed doors.

I wrote this as my facebook status today: “Trying not to be discouraged by closed doors…” and a friend wrote back “See any open windows? 🙂 Chin up.” 

At first I felt annoyed – “No I don’t see any open windows.  I’d like to just sit here in this dark hallway and have myself a good ole pity party, thankyouverymuch.”

But as I thought about it more I realized that yes, I do indeed see an open window.

I see it here.

Two big open windows!

There is nothing but potential, hope, opportunity, joy and love staring right at me every time I look down at these beautiful windows to this little soul.  Wow.

How can I be discouraged?

“Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. (Psalm 43:5)

14 thoughts on “An Open Window

  1. Sorry you had a discouraging day – I definitely know what that feels like, especially with wondering if the blog has any impact. So glad you were encouraged that you do have enormous impact right in your own home – probably the most important kind of influence you can have on someone. 🙂 I also try to remember that many of the things God will call me to do, while hopefully building his kingdom in others, will also be about challenging me to become more like Christ. While I look for success in how my work affects others, perhaps it’s my heart that needs to be changed the most.

  2. Oh, Heather! I have so been there, I kind of am there right now. Well I am there right now. I just don’t blog about it too much lately. I am trying to find those windows too. You really encouraged me today. I need to see my little ones as windows too. We have so much to offer them. I’ll be praying for you.

  3. I have to tell you, the only reason I think my blog is growing is because I have done a few giveaways. But then I get sad because I think…..if the only reason people are following me is because of giveaways….then why would they care to read what I write? I blog because of sharing what God has put on my heart, not for the giveaways 🙁

  4. honestly, i’m grateful for those doors that appear to slam shut. i want to be in His will and i want to know what i am doing is of Him. even if it is a very good thing. i struggle when doors keep opening up! because, an open door does not mean we automatically go through. an open door involves a decision on our part. to go or to say no per the leading of the HS. and, even when a door is ‘closed’, there are still times when we know our Lord is wanting us to continue on in pursuing. 🙂

  5. Heather sorry you are discouraged… im glad that in the midst of that you are able to evaluate and see the many open windows in your life. and this blog counts as one too. when one door closes, another opens. I’m sure a huge blessing is on the way (Rom. 8:28). hugs.

  6. when i get discouraged by “closed doors” my momma always says “when god closes a door, he’s getting ready to open a better one for you. don’t worry”

    your window is absolutely gorgeous and perfect.

    love to you.

  7. its kind of funny but I’ve felt like this as well. I mean not from the exact same experiences, but from the blogging perspective. I also wanted to make my blog into something meaningful, something that people would find inspiring and lovely, and perhaps some day allow me to quit my corporate job and stay home to raise my children. I felt like my growth also was at a standstill and no matter how hard I worked on my posts it didn’t matter. I got discouraged.

    But then I took a step back and I realized a few very KEY things. {1} the most important thing right now is my son…his growth his development and these moments are passing too quickly. {2} the readers that I do have are loyal and amazing and they genuinely enjoy checking in and reading my posts…and sometimes quality maybe matters more than quantity…depending on your goal {3}lastly, blogging has allowed me to meet some really amazing people, creative, passionate and beautiful people, who I have become great friends with and who inspire me every day to be better and do better.

    So I think we win in the end. I can tell you for a fact that your blog reaches people like me and makes us want to be better, more inspired and alive. So keep doing what you’re doing because there’s lots of us out here loving it.

    And your little guy is amazing and beautiful and he matters most of all.

  8. I totally know what you mean! I’ve been in the same place this week. But… how I can I remain that way when I’ve received the unmerited grace of God? Breathe. You’re right where you need to be!

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