I’m a Little Nervous

I’m getting ready for my first speaking engagement since baby Cohen was born and as excited as I am, it’s proving to be pretty challenging.

When Alex and I found out we were pregnant it was the most exciting news!  However, I had just quit my full time teaching job in order to pursue a speaking and writing ministry.  It was a huge faith step because I gave up a salary, pension, benefits, etc, and all for a passion that really isn’t a money-maker.

Finding out a baby was on the way changed things yet again.  Instead of having the freedom to speak anywhere – anytime, I knew my expectations would need to shift.  And as the requests for summer camps poured in (well they didn’t pour exactly, but I was asked to speak at four camps), I found it incredibly difficult to say no.  Following some good advice from a fellow speaker, I decided to take June-September off and had my last event in May, 2 weeks before my due date!  (next time, no events the month before – it was exhausting!!)

Now that I’m getting ready for my first weekend youth retreat post-baby, I’m a little nervous.  Usually when I prepare for a weekend like this, I take hours at a time to study the theme passages and plan out my talks clearly and concisely.

Well doing anything for “hours at a time” doesn’t happen much these days.  I don’t even sleep for “hours at a time”!  So my prep happens ten minutes here and twenty minutes there.  And as I’m rocking or feeding or changing or bathing the boy, my mind wanders to a mental outline of each talk – trying to piece together fragmented thoughts into a clear message.

It’ll be different now.

Alex will come with me and in between talks I’ll be rocking and feeding and changing and bathing (not Alex – Cohen!)  Thankfully I have the most incredible husband who is willing to support me in this way and for that I’m so grateful.

I’m also grateful for truths like this one, found in Zechariah 4:6:

“‘Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,’ says the LORD Almighty.”

This verse assures me I can put aside my nerves and trust that all God needs from me – from any of us – is our willingness and availability to be used by His Spirit.

How do other moms and dads out there balance work and parenting?  Lately I’ve been prepping during his naps, but I have a lot of other things to do during those times – like shower!  And often his naps are short.

Any advice/thoughts?

I’d love to hear from you.

photos by Photography by Jodi

10 thoughts on “I’m a Little Nervous

  1. My dear friend Heather the Feather, No advice here….been doing this for 15 years now, and still don’t know how its done. I think the Lord is going to use you even more mightily, cause now you are going to have to rely on Him even more. He uses the weak, broken, and Mom’s that want to serve but don’t seem to have anything left, after serving their families (which is His serve too). I think when we feel inadequate, He can can do more! Its less of us, and more of Him. YOu will do great!!! So proud of you that you are speaking out to this young world. They need Godly rolemodels….and you are a great one. The Schmidts love you! Shelley

    1. Oh Shelley, you just brought tears to this hormonal mommies eyes! I love you and your whole bunch too! Thanks for your encouragement. You are awesome. p.s. I want to hang out with you more – seriously!

  2. ahh, don’t be nervous, i know you will do amazing at your talk! and you will find the best way to balance between parenting and work!
    xo TJ

  3. Hey Heather,

    It is the harest thing to balance ever! The best advice I ever got was to “Keep the number one thing the number one thing”. Know your limits, being a Mother is the most important job in the world! Everyone is different in how much they can juggle. I just know I don’t want to miss out on Sienna…. she’ll grow up soooo fast and I don’t want to be too busy and stressed with work that I don’t have enough time and energy to invest into her. But if you can find a happy balance I’m sure you’ll really enjoy having that time out from being Mum and persuing your career. Its great that you can tailor fit it time wise to suit you and baby Cohan:). It will get easier as he startes to sleep for longer periods at a time …and through the night! That makes a HUGE difference! So in the not too far away future you’ll have evenings free 🙂 You are doing awesome!! Keep up the fab work! xxoo

  4. I like what Shelley wrote! It’s so true – God’s strength and knowledge and words have even more of a chance to shine through you now!

    I think that really, you’ll be better than ever, because being a mom has already expanded your experiences, and who you are, and how you relate to God and others. It will be exciting to see how God takes all of that new stuff, and uses your growth to teach more fully through you.

    And maybe you won’t have hours and hours to study and prep and stuff, but maybe we accomplish more in short, desperate prayers for His help and guidance than we do in all of our busy preparations. (Those can be good, too! But sometimes we miss out on just plain needing Him desperately.)

    Wishing you all the best as you prepare/desperately need Him!

  5. Hey there! Just stumbled upon your blog and found this really old post… which is exactly what I needed to read tonight! I think God is so groovy that way! I am a stay-at-home mother of 3 and it seems the Lord has been opening door after door for me… Next Wednesday, I have been asked to speak at a youth camp about human trafficking. I am super excited and super nervous!! I have the pleasure and honor of working with a ministry here in my city that rescues women who have been sexually exploited or trapped in human trafficking. This will be different speaking to youth… but reading your words… they are just exactly what I needed to hear! I just wanted to say- thank you!

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