We all experience feeling rejected, inadequate, overwhelmed or left behind at some point in our lives. There is probably a situation this past week where you felt as though you weren’t good enough in some way. Maybe as those honest, vulnerable eyes gazed up into yours, you realized how impatient you’ve been as a parent. How far you have to go.
I struggle with this. How can I, an imperfect, flawed, distracted, Christ-follower ever hope to communicate the powerful truth of God’s love effectively to my child? My husband? The people I speak and write to? How can I change the lives of those around me so that they can be more free, more alive, more excited about a life with God? How can I be enough?
We can’t and we don’t have to.
It’s not our words that will change little lives, it’s God’s word.
It’s not our love that heals broken hearts, it’s His perfect love.
It’s not our effort that makes us good enough, it’s God’s grace.
Being a mother teaches us, like nothing else, that we can’t do it – not on our own strength. And as discouraging as this truth could be, it’s actually a blessing, a truth that brings freedom. When we finally come to the end of ourselves (maybe by 10am in the morning, if you’re like me) we realize He’s there.
Our rope doesn’t end where we do – it just leads us to fall harder into His arms, His grace, His strength.
Mama, I know it’s been hard. It’s been hard to stay patient, hard to think of ideas to keep little imaginations entertained, hard to keep up with the constant mess. But you’re not alone. You have access to the endless source of love, patience, creativity, energy, strength. So don’t be afraid to come to the end of yourself, even before you’ve had a chance to wipe up the breakfast crumbs.
Maybe what we really need is to come to the end of ourselves the moment we wake, and start our day asking Holy Spirit to be our everything, before we even begin.
You don’t have to strive today because He wants you to soar by the power of his Spirit.
“Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace“ Romans 8:5-6
How do you stay connected to God throughout the day? I’d love to hear your thoughts in the comments.