The Surprises of Motherhood


Even before he was born I knew Cohen was one of a kind.  Sitting breech at 37 weeks all the way to the end (42 weeks!), he was stubborn from the start.  Did you know that only 3-4% of babies are breech at full term?  The rest of them clue in and realize upside down is the way to go!

But because Cohen didn’t want to be like everyone else, I ended up having a C-section.  And wouldn’t you know it, the originality continued and Cohen was born with a full head of red hair.  Only 1-2% of the population has red hair!  Just another sign my boy was a totally unique gift from God.


But that’s no surprise because as every mother knows a baby is the most precious gift.  However there were a few other surprises…

Like how the first 6 weeks put me in a total fog.  The combination of recovering from surgery and sleep deprivation made for a zombie-like version of myself who could barely keep track of which boob the baby ate from last and how many bowel movements he’d had in the last 24 hours.  In those first few weeks I actually kept notes on my iphone to track all the liquids going in and out of that kid!

I remember sitting at a baby shower listening to one of my friends talk about the blessing of motherhood, and the overwhelming love a mother feels for her child.  But as I sat there I thought to myself “I’m not sure I feel that yet.  All I feel is overwhelmed.”  In my head I knew I loved him, but I was surprised that it took awhile to really feel it.

After those first 6 weeks passed, I came out of the fog and began to feel human again.  Now nothing can stop the welling up of emotion I feel when I looked into the baby blues of my little boy!


But the surprises didn’t stop there.

Here are a few of the things that have continued to keep me on my toes:

Babies puke a lot.  I’ve had it down my sleeve, in my hair, and even down the back of my pants! (don’t ask)

I’ll do anything, I mean anything, to make that boy giggle.  High-pitched voices?  Oh yes.  Ridiculous faces?  For sure.

Babies poop even more than they puke.  And they can pump that stuff out with some force.  Yikes.

It’s hard to clip tiny finger nails but if you don’t keep up, those razors will get ya.

The camera batteries always die right when baby decides to do something amazing for the first time.

Sleeping, showering and eating really aren’t that necessary after all – I can survive on a lot less than I used to.

I’ve never felt as important as I do when he smiles at me.

Trusting God takes on a whole new meaning when it’s trusting Him with the life of your child.

I never knew I could love so much or so hard.  Sometimes I think my heart will just burst!

And the biggest surprise of all, only 5 1/2 months later – I actually want another one!

11 thoughts on “The Surprises of Motherhood

  1. I want another one too! I said that the minute he came out and I kissed his gooey face for the first time.

    I was in labour with him for 22hours and had to have an emergency c-section because his heart reate crashed and didn’t pick back up again. I’ve never been so scared in life. I was so afraid of losing him that for me that connection was instant…maybe because I was so close to not having it at all.

    I am so thankful to God for keeping us both safe, and blessing our lives with such a precious little person.

    All of the things you said are 100% true, its so amazing!

  2. Sweet sweet! It’s nice to hear that it’s not always perfect but the fog does lift…and he is so incredibly adorable, I just want to squeeze his cheeks! Have another one! 🙂

  3. love this! Had to laugh out loud and think of my mom- she had to endure c-sections with both my older brother and I. I was breech and I am a redhead 🙂 He is absolutely precious!

  4. So sweet 🙂 God really put motherhood in our hearts…a love that is so unlike any other..and I know this without even having kids! Can’t wait to have them!

  5. I am loving this post! I have a 9 month old and it just made me smile. I totally 100% agree with how my relationship with God has changed now that you’re trusting Him with your child! So true!

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