This past June I made a big decision to quit my full time teaching job and pursue a full time speaking and writing ministry. At the time I felt confident this was the direction God was leading and so it was without worry or hesitation that I moved ahead.
Well the reality has set in, and I have to admit its been more difficult than I anticipated. We went from 2 full time incomes and very few payments to almost double the payments and half the income. Though I’ve been able to do some substitute teaching, it’s been slower than ever before.
And as the day to day pressure of bills and expenses crowd in I find myself doubting and questioning my decision. Not because I think I heard God wrong, but because it’s hard.
So often when we make a big decision, we sense God’s leading so clearly at the beginning. But as reality sinks in we start to question whether we actually heard him right or not. God wouldn’t possibly lead me into a situation where I’d be challenged, would he? He couldn’t possibly want to take me out of my comfort and grow my faith in a new way. Or could he?
When we receive a promise from God, we aren’t usually prepared for the process between the promise and the fulfillment of the promise. We think everything should happen quickly.
But the truth is, God takes a long time to act suddenly.
It’s all over scripture! Even Jesus waited 30 years for 3 years of ministry. And the process is what prepares us for the fulfillment of the promise. If we spend the whole process worrying, are we going to be ready for the fulfillment?
Worry is the absence of faith. When we worry we say that God is not who He says He is. He is not good and He is not able or willing to work all things together for our good. Worry says God is a liar.
“Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?” Matthew 6:27
Today, instead of worrying, follow this advice in Philippians 4:6-8.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Not only will you save yourself the stress of worry, you’ll show God that the process is working and you’re more ready for the fulfillment of the promise today than you were yesterday.
And be expectant because you never know when He’s going to act suddenly!